How lonely can you be when you’re sad and alone? I, sometimes asked that myself. So, how lonely is being lonely?
Christmas is around the corner, and I know that it will be a good and enjoyable time for the family. But, how can you celebrate when your heart is lonely? This year gave us good, best, bad and worse days for the family. It’s been a rollercoaster ride. I know, life is not fair and never will be. Acceptance is key to all the things happening in someone’s life. However, sometimes, I doubt myself. How can I accept all the those things? Am I capable of doing that?
This Christmas will never be the same because of many reasons. Family being apart from each other, lonely hearts, problem and dear family members who passed away. This is the first time I’m actually saying this. It’s hard to cope up with a loss. The house, the warmth and the celebrations will never be the same again.
I used to question why those things need to happen, but like they say, things happen for a reason. But, why so soon? I get teary eye when I think about it, and feel hurt not just for myself but for the rest of the family. It’s hard losing people. You always remember how it felt when they were around, feel sad on special occasions that they usually take part in, and bleed to see that his better half and children cry every night for missing him so much.
I can still remember the pain, the tears and the hugs that were so lonely. It made me cry everytime. The memories of them will never be gone, but sometimes, I feel that it would be better if those memories didn’t stop, yet.
It will never be the same again. Loneliness is inevitable and life has to move on. But sometimes, you have those questions. How can I move on? How can I overcome being lonely? How is it to be alone? And yes, I maybe have had answered some of them, but, I’m still lost at times. One thing is for sure, being lonely is lonelier if you’re alone.
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